What would you say if said I love you
Those 3 little words they would scare you
Would freak and move out of my house
And act like a jerk and a louse
Could I say it just one time please
I have you here now should I beg on my knees
I wont do that no not to you
But I love you so much I don't know what to do
I'm so sorry if I make you feel
Like you owe me something we had no deal
So please forgive me I'm sorry to say
I never wanted to make you feel that way
I know I was wrong what was I thinking
I thought I could make you love me thru all the drinking
Boy was I wrong and ever so wrong
So I will let this die but its so strong
How do it turn it off and let it go
It hurts so bad how can it not show
I feel this pain deep in my heart
It hurts so bad its been torn apart
The bleeding it does is all for you
So I'm sorry my dear I love you True
Committed
I know its true the feeling is strong
Its be true now for much to long
The time has come I must get over
I cant have him no more as my lover
I know he don't want me in any way
So I deal every day so he will stay
I hide my feelings deep inside
I close myself up and just hide
I hate this life it sucks so bad
It hurts so much it makes me sad
To feel this way all the time
It makes me sick and it's a crime
I wish I knew how to make these feelings leave
Instead now I just sit and grieve
My love for you is stronger than you know
But you will never ever let me show
Just how much I really do care
So I will sit and just stare
At this screen as I sit and write each line
Knowing now that even with time
I'll never really have you not ever at all
So I must no go its time for me to crawl
Back to my husband who don't really care
But he is the one that has always been there
Even though he don't know what I am doing
But if he did he would surely be going
But I'm sorry now for the things I have done
I wish I could undo them one by one
But I cannot so I must keep it to myself
And store it some where on a dark shelf
So you never know how bad I have been
I'm sorry my dear for committing these sins
